Hey. I'm feeling kind of low today, because I have to go to papa's tonight and stay there a whole week. The last time was boring, but not so bad, because the only people I had to deal with were Grandma/pa and my cousin (and my sisters). They all have their annoyances, but papa and kim are the big bahoogies. I'm going to be wasting valuable time sitting around watching TV while I could be at the zoo or something. AND I HAVE NO CHOICE. It's crazy. And I feel bad for writing this, because papa and kim are trying to make it a really fun week, but the thing is....Being at the apartment is so stressful for me. You would not believe. I can't let my guard down for even one second. First of all, I have to protect my little sisters, make sure nobody messes with them. That is the major thing. I try to get through each visit one at a time. I try to keep my sanity, but even one weekend at the apartment leaves me feeling suicidal...a whole week? There's so much my sisters don't know....so much I don't know...it's scary.

luvs